Did life spiral out of control for you too this year?  Or in the last three years?

Mine sure did.  The life I built died and I am still here, watching the smoke rise up from the ruins while some ghosts dance around, pretending that they are alive.

This sort of feels like I’ve travelled through time, deep and wide, and now here I am, back from my wanderings and everything’s gone but me.

God pruned my life and made it very narrow while at the same time He expanded my spirit beyond anything I could’ve ever imagined. 

He exposed the foundations of my very existence.

It’s a weird place to be in.  I don’t know how to bridge the gap or which gap I’m supposed to bridge … if any!!

How do I carry myself into the new season and new life without any of the structure of the previous life?  I honestly don’t know how to do it.  Do I just let it go and let it be?  Is it that simple?

How about my identity?  It seems to have taken a hit and needs to shift, now that I am not needed in the way I used to be.  Could I become someone who gets to be enjoyed even if is not needed?   

So many questions!  Not to mention that I have no idea where to go from here. 

I wonder how Lazarus lived his life after Jesus resurrected him.

Did he just continue his life as if he had slept for a few days and now he was up and running again? 

Did he consider himself dead to the life before and pursued life with whatever new perspective that death, dying and what he experienced beyond the grave gave him?  Did he do a mix of the two? 

Did he keep the stuff that was precious from his life before the grave and added on that foundation the new stuff?

How did he do it? 

I wish the Bible had more to share on how Lazarus lived his life after he experienced the resurrection power of Christ.