I got caught up in my busy own world

Trying to outrun time and get things done

And in the middle of my chasing

I heard God say “Selah!”.

My whole world froze.

I was like in a raging storm,

Just tossed around by violent winds,

Torn in between a dream and a rock

And suddenly it all just stopped.

I found myself in perfect stillness,

Surrounded by The One Who Knows.

Oh, how I know to step all over my heart

To get things done, to do ‘what’s right’!

And I walked past that still small voice

That was inviting me to rest, to dine, to dream, to dance, to breathe;

…to be with The God Of In Between.

Oh, what a waste!

Determination, endurance and defiance.

I’m made of all those things.

And even though they are great traits,

My motives were all wrong.

I felt like I was 5 years old again,

Trying to prove my right to exist.

The “not enough” awoke in me,

And “orphan” was the name I carried.

But He has birthed me in great joy

And “My own” was the name He gave me.

The one who calls Himself “I AM”

Has given me the right to be.

My mind is overthrown.

And in this “Selah” kind of state

I stand in awe, breathing Him in.

My heart is speechless.

Another breath…

My feet began to dance again.